New Beginning

I’ve been in an interesting sort of fog and, as usual, I prefer to get a handle on what it is before I write about it on Daily Sojourner. I didn’t have any concrete plans after graduating college this past May other than traveling and perhaps living as a hippie somewhere in Honduras (no joke). Both sides of my family are originally from Honduras, so I thought of it as a mission to discover my roots. But after three and a half months of traveling and self-inspection, and through a twist and turn of events that is LIFE, I elected to move to Trinidad & Tobago to live with my family while doing graduate studies in Law. It’s kinda funny how that turned out, because though this move has been a premiere option from the get-go, I resisted it tooth and nail.

But now I’m here, for a combination of important reasons that I cannot regret or refute, and while I freely made my decision, I find myself wondering almost every day “what the heck am I doing here?” and “where am I going with this plan?”

These, among other questions, have sunk me into deep despair and anxiety, coupled with post-grad slums where I miss my family of friends back in Los Angeles, and the fact that I really dislike Trinidad.

I’m trying to make the best of it. Life is definitely not turning out as I expected it, and honestly, in this season of stagnancy, I cannot foresee how I’ll get out of this funk. But, I’ve finally come to a point recently where I’m trying to do little things to lift my spirit and fine tune my gifts.

So, from here on out, I’ll be posting reflective pieces—stories from my past travels, observations from my new life in Trinidad and, hopefully, more songs and poetry that I’m inspired to share. So far in the history of Daily Sojourner, I’ve been writing about current events in my life, but this season of standstill is encouraging me to look backward: to reflect on lessons that I’ve perhaps overlooked or taken for granted. And maybe the lesson overall will be inspiration to look to my future with faith and courage again.

So, here’s to new beginnings.

~Feroza

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